My online photo class is over and I thought Iâd put up the weekly photo recap today to celebrate! It has been a challenge to keep up with Nablopomo and Photo101 this month, and I feel proud and a little fatigued. And strangely, a little bored.
Iâm curious about the relationship between fatigue, boredom, and the ending of a chapter in oneâs work life. I feel it with this monthâs ending, a sense of relaxation and relief, mixed with a âwhat nowâ feeling. Itâs a microcosm of the ending of my teaching career. For the last year or so, Iâve been working at not working, and strange as it sounds, itâs not easy. I have to learn to be free.
What if there is no âtheyâ out there telling me what to do? Telling me the âshouldsâ and âhave tosâ of life? Sometimes, itâs easy as pie. Relax, do some crafts, read, watch tv, go for a walk, visit with friends, do chores. But sometimes, itâs hard, like, âhow do I do nothing?â âAm I allowed to do nothing?â “What do I want to do?” How to we get so accustomed to just following directions, coloring within the lines, buying our lives off the shelf?
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