relaxation

So I can’t believe it’s been so long since I blogged.  New job.  Birthday. What else happened in September?  Oh yeah, my career of 20 years was shown to be REALLY OVER.  So I didn’t write.  I didn’t know what to think.  Words were far from my mind.  Being supervised at the new job by people who are young enough to be my children!  Being in that strange position of not knowing what to do, fearing that I look like I’m lost.  Well, actually being lost and not wanting anyone to be able to tell.  Finally, oh well, I don’t care.  I’m lost.  I’ve come to the place where I have to be a beginner again, again.  Can’t believe this.  and still protest it every time.  am I making sense?  Just be.