The epic fail–an opportunity for learning

 

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from jodichilds.blogspot.com

 

I had a roommate long ago who had this great things she would say when things didn’t go right, “Oh, that’s okay, it’s a FOG.” Fucking opportunity for growth. It was hilarious.  It’s super hilarious if you’re a therapy inclined lifelong learner with a strong sense of gallows humor. I am.

Okay, I think I’m the only one ever to fail at the whole30. I mean I didn’t fail, my (facial) skin looks great. But I also had my first facial during that thirty days and wound up getting some really expensive face stuff, so the experiment was somewhat botched. I also was in a very good mood and had lots of energy and little pain during the month. I was also filled with hope at the thought of losing this big ole’ tummy and feeling better–recovering! The epic fail was that I cooked my butt off for 30 days shopping, eating, and cleaning the kitchen.  I seriously have dishpan hands. I didn’t really think it was a thing. I had to get those rubber gloves.  Anyway, here’s the really sad part: I DIDN’T LOSE WEIGHT. And I was totally bloated and yucky. Their website says you may have other issues getting in the way of your weightloss, like for me, Fibro, IBS, no good bacteria in my gut (yes I did a poo test–I spared you a post about that, handing my box of poo to the sweet handsome young man at Fed-Ex was really…I don’t know.)

I am now trying to figure out where to go next. I went to my Naturopath, whom I had a feeling had helped me all she could already (by thankfully prescribing the Methylfolate and Methylcobalamine), but she doesn’t look that thin or healthy herself, and she’s gotten bossier and less prone to really listening. But I went back to give her one more chance.  I felt totally not listened to. I can go to Kaiser for that (Alliopathic doctor). She suggested a ridiculous fodmaps elimination diet which seems not the best idea for me because I did patsy Catsos’ group by group Fodmaps Elimination diet four years ago and learned about what I can and  cannot eat, which is always changing.Three or four years ago it changed a lot when I started eating kefir and sauerkraut on a regular basis. Suddenly I could eat all kinds of Fodmaps with no reaction. So I think it’s really the gut-biome that needs to be fixed, rather than creating a big list of stuff I can’t eat.

Also, there was that study where researchers switched the gut bacteria of a fat and skinny mouse, and the fat mouse got skinny and vice versa. So, maybe get my gut biome repaired and I’ll lose weight and not have IBS. I read another study about dirt-based probiotics (really called soil-based probiotics sbos, not to be confused with sibo, which I don’t have), and now I’m going to start taking some soil based probiotics.  I’ll let you know how it goes.

I remember an April fools show a long time ago on NPR where Alice Waters was supposedly going to start serving dirt crostini at Chez Panisse.  Well, here I go….

Remember, in comments “For me…” is so much kinder than “You should….” I don’t know “shoulds” very much. Thanks for your thoughtful and kind consideration. Some of us are hella sensitive.

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Midlife Makeover!!

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Remember being a pre-teen and feeling like “if I could just get one of those makeovers like in the magazines, I’d get…” or “I’d be….” Usually the answers involved popularity, boyfriends, etc.  No, you don’t remember? I do.  (Above, that’s really Heidi Klum in costume, not me after my middle-age makeover.)

Well, if you’ve read more than five posts here, I’m sure you know I have Fibromyalgia and I ended my 20 year teaching career about a year and something ago because of it, and I’m needing to reinvent myself. It’s not that I want boyfriends or popularity. I’m married and have a blog that gets at least three hits a day. What I want is health, confidence, happyishness (which is a term I’ve copyrighted, so I hope if it takes off and gets popular, it will make me popular too–oh, contradiction!). When I say “happyishness,” I mean tending toward happiness without being weirdly fake or Polyanna. Happy and with a range of emotions that show I’m really alive.

So I was thinking a few weeks ago that my confidence is just not where it’s supposed to be. At my age, I don’t really believe in my self doubts. How weird is that. I know that when a person identifies with a certain role for many years, and then stops, but doesn’t have anything to take it’s place (except maybe the role of “sick person,” ugh), they may get a little blah.  It’s not really real though (in the big scheme of things). So I decided that I needed to cheer myself up and buying new clothes wasn’t going to work, I needed to lose some weight so those new clothes would look good. I didn’t want to be a Cathy cartoon. bathing suit dressing room cartoon

I had recently stopped smoking, YAY! and felt confident that I could make another healthy achievement.  My sister-in-law recently lost 30 pounds through exercise and portion control, which was inspiring, but I knew I couldn’t exercise that much with my fibro.

Enter Whole30. I had been looking at it for a while. I am really hesitant to follow things that have lots of ads and lots of people on the internet going “wow! wow!” But I researched it. It’s free, well, I bought the Kindle book for around ten bucks.

I knew that Paleo had helped some people with Chronic Fatigue and Fibro, and I had wondered if it could help me. Maybe I could lose weight and heal.  I had been off wheat for about three years, but the other “healthy whole grains” like oatmeal and rice were still in my diet. I read recently that Robert Downy Jr. said of quitting drugs, something like, “It wasn’t hard after I really committed.” I knew this was true for me with smoking. So I committed. It’s only 30 days. Today is day 12. I have more energy. I still hurt. Osteoarthritis, IBS, but I’m figuring it all out. I’m happyish. (BTW, if you haven’t read my post about Methylfolate and Methyl B12 and how much it helped me, read it here.)

I’m totally committed and have been cooking really great food. Its a great cooking challenge. More to come about my food and my Whole30.  Be well.

P.S. In your comments, please refrain from advice-giving or judgments. Stick to your own experience. “For me…” is a lot more helpful than “You should….”

P.P.S. I know some people think Paleo and Low Carb are bad.  If you’re one of them, I know you’re out there, you don’t need to tell me and throw cold water on my enthusiastic experiment :-).